When faced with an uphill climb there are two types of people. The ones that will stop at nothing until they reach the top, no matter how long it takes. And then there are others who start out confident, but along the way come up with a million reasons why reaching the top doesn’t really matter, ultimately giving up. For most of my life I have been the latter, and I am not talking trash about myself. I am just being honest with the fact that I have a tendency to bail when things get hard. I have had to learn to stay through the hard stuff and then discover the afterglow of the fight, no matter how hard or long.
Eric Thomas says, “winners win, and losers loose”, and he is right. I wouldn’t go so far as to call myself a looser, but I had a ‘quitting is ok as long as I can come up with a good enough reason’ kind of mentality. I thought it was ok to give up if I just tried harder next time. But this never finishing was catching up with me. I was getting more and more disappointed in myself and trying to figure out why things don’t just work out for me like they seem to in other people lives. I then started comparing, and that never goes well.
So here I am, climbing a mountain. And every time I start to think of all the reasons I will never get to the top, I have to remind myself that I am choosing winning this time around, I want to feel the afterglow. People say year seven of marriage is hard, for us it was year nine; after you have a baby and move three times in ten months, and get bumped back to GO in the monopoly game, it takes its toll. Starting and running a nonprofit is scary stuff too, as is any business. Do people understand what I am doing? Why I am doing it? Will they grab hold of my vision?
I had lunch with a friend the other day and she reminded me how far we have come in 9 months, and that I really don’t take the time to enjoy what we have accomplished. I love how we started, I love what we are about, I love our Board of Directors, and I love the families we serve. I am honored to do this work... even if it takes a lot longer to climb the mountain than I would like.